As the erratic temperament of the weather shifts with between joy and displeasure, the noticeable changes towards summer has began. Yet, even the blistering inferno of the sun cannot mask the chilling darkness of the universe cloaking our tiny orbiting Earth.
Along with the changes of the environment, some personal scheduling must be shifted around with it.
While staying inside a dim-lit room for the voyeuristic viewing some story for an hour or two may be rather enjoyable, the heavy burden of economic instability deems this venture to be an occasional event these days. Once upon some time ago, this would have been a weekly event. Alas, nothing lasts. Especially stability. Doing a similar activity in the comfort of one's home uses the electric aspect, especially if the weather is not ideal and requires mechanical environmental adjustments.
Thus, the need for something more, to be relieved of daily pressure, social discourse, and mundane repetition has one seeking the long traditional venue of story books.
In my case, there happens to be an abundance of romance novels. It's amazing how in one order, Blue-Eyed Devil got sent before Sugar Daddy. This causes minor irritation since I do not want to read out of order. Now, the temptation is building beyond physical endurance. Instead, the one thing left to do is divert attention.
Those whom know me well, or at least have hear me rant, understand my love of mangas and animes is only second to my love fairytales, folklores, legends and myths. In all of these stories, though, I must insist on a thread of romance. Only a very minuscule few are able to escape the rigid assessment (Junni Kokki/Twelve Kingdoms).
I had finally weened myself off of the most dangerous objects of my affection. I took Japanese for a little while so I would able to read Gakuen Alice, Ghost Hunt, BLEACH, Skip Beat and many many more because my Chinese was too weak, the books came out slower, and my school cancelled the classes. Then I had to stop watching very good Asian dramas. Now, I realized before I would develop rounds in order to keep myself in check. Switch from one type of obsession to another; romance novels, mangas and animes, television and movie series, and one month of break where I go shopping a little bit more.
This year, however, I think I've created a problem. I'm doing all three. So far, only the shopping has been held off.
My actual dilemma now is if I should stop and finish what I have, proceed with the current path of economic damage yet with a very high happiness factor, or maybe just one final question: where shall I start first?