Thursday, November 20, 2008

mini update

(Isn't it cute? Right out my window.)
Poll isn't accurate as I've asked around in person. Going to keep writing. A bit slow, but oh well.

I'm going to switch to third person now. I'll edit the front to fit later.

Just about everything has been blocked. Blogger is next. I know it is. Dangit.

Miss everyone a lot. More to write this weekend.

Wednesday, November 19, 2008

stray thought

Why do women often choose their husband over their children? I know a lot don't, but somehow, people make choices that even as I understand the psychology behind it; the logic and realities of these choices are so obviously NOT good for anyone.

I donno. Am very conflicted.

Sometimes, ignorance really may be bliss. Or at least, denial makes the surface normal while creates a great festering wound that slowly poisons the very life it provides. Nothing less but a hollow shell infecting and consuming everything around.

I have a fav. phrase lately...'sucking the life out of______'. I wasn't even thinking vamps either. Hahaha.

Now I'm kinda regretting not writing that horror. I do that next. Maybe...

Tuesday, November 18, 2008

Minor update

Things are a bit busy and crazy right now. Am going into my cave for a bit. Well, I'll still be blog hopping (cuz not is too painful), but probably won't be commenting as regularly. Stuff.
NaNo is going better. Still low on wordcount and no way of catching up, but my characters are at least talking to me. I still want to whine about it though. Hahaha. I'm finding it easier to think up ideas, but realized that the 2 years of slacking off has really taken a toll on my writings skills, language, and vocabulary. I have half a mind to memorize the dictionary. What? I used to read it for fun. Yes, I'm weird. If you don't have an encyclopedia, pre-wikipedia, and no live...ya read the dictionary.
Finally bought a book after 3 months of abstaining (no, I'm not counting pre-orders, they were done beforehand). I know, I freak myself out too. Still, I really want to move out and every bit helps. Now if only the apartments would go a few hundred dollars cheaper...
Current tie between "Sheep Shifter" and "Enspelled/Enchanted Sheep." Teehee.
Now, a totally cute picture with no apparent reason.

Saturday, November 15, 2008

SoCal Get together adventure

Before I go into a rant about how much fun I had meeting up with the SoCal bloggers/readers, I just wanted to updated a little 'adventure' today because of the meet up.

Currently, I am spending the night at Rosie's along with Wendy and the Man whom evacuated from one of the many SoCal fires. We're all safe and alive. The Super Librarian will update as will Rosie on their take, but I'm very happy we're all safe.

To come here, both Wendy and I needed to pass through a few of the fires. Wendy and the Man evacuated and met up with the rest of us that could make the meet. Rosie (of course), Tracy, Lori, and Niki. I came a bit early and drove past the beginning of a small smoke puff. Apparently, with the wind situation, it exploded after I had left; thus the evacuation for my fav. librarian and her man.

The freeways are still closed and the few opened are too jammed. So, we're having a bit of a part. Well, no, we're actually just sitting around and watching the news.

It's all a bit intense and shell shocking, but being alive is good. My family's all doing well too, except they were a bit peeved I had driven so far in the first place. Too bad. I like having friends. I know, they're just worried. Having me as a child is no easy feat.

In the meantime, we'll see what happens. Please don't worry. We're all doing fine. Me probably more than others since I'm young and think I'm invincible. Okay, I'm just bamming.

Although, this does put a days dent in my NaNo writing process. And my journal! Dangit. My dog too. Now, I'm going to wonder off and be lost in Rosie's vast book collection. Or watch TV. Whichever's more distracting.

Peace out. *kisses*

Friday, November 14, 2008

NaNo continues

Dangit! I think Damien's a goat.

What the heck?!?!! Stop changing the story on me. >_<

So far, shapeshifter sheep is in the lead by one vote.
Enchanted sheep is second, with sheep familiar and no love for the demon sheeps.

SoCal meet tomorrow. I'm super excited. :) Haven't seen anyone since RWA. Whee to books, talk, and food. ^_^

Thursday, November 13, 2008

First poll!!!!

NaNoWriMo is killing me. More like, my characters' continued tightlipped mockery of not telling me anything expect when I'm wrong is driving me insane.

So, as the poll suggests...what is Damien, the sheep?
a) Ordinary Shapeshifter sheep- like them werewolves and whatnot (darn you KB for putting this idea into my head! *shakes fist*).

b) Demon in the form of a sheep- as it said, demon...sheep.

c) Human cursed as sheep (enchanted like a frog, curse can be broken)- Think cursed prince, enchanted frog. He's a human, but cursed. Think fairytale

d) Or plain old talking sheep- More fantasy with those talking animal familiars.

I've already asked around and I have three votes already. Let me know what you think. Feel free to comment.

Oh, and keep in mind, this is a happy story. Sorta.

Edit: Additional votes not on poll:
Three votes to (a).
One vote to (c)

Wednesday, November 12, 2008

Today is Wed

Two more days until weekend.
It's my last day at DIK.
And I found out my work blocked Twitter, Perez Hilton AND Marjorie M. Liu's livejournal!!! What the heck?

This is so not cool.

I wonder what they are going to block next. *sigh*

Edit: SBTB got blocked.

Tuesday, November 11, 2008

Sunday, November 9, 2008

recent recap

Crazy week.

With holidays, I'm getting deadlines and increase in workload. Surprisingly, a lot of my co-workers are not as busy. It either means I'm falling behind, or I'm falling behind. Okay, okay, it could be because I worry more and try to make sure things are done. Besides, I'm going to be on pins until my review. Oh the stress.

Also with the holidays: presents. Not for me (boo!), but friends are expecting presents and I have no idea what to give them. We usually make presents and exchange, but I don't have that much flexibility in time anymore. Need to think on it some more.

Last week, my paternal grandma was sent to the emergency room and had to be kept over night for observation. She's one stubborn woman, like the rest of the family of course. They almost had to forcibly take her because she kept insisting she was fine. Already released Friday so it should be good. Now we just need to make sure she takes her meds. She insists that she doesn't need them. *sigh* What is it with grandparents and self medicating. Grandpa takes half the dose he needs for his meds and refused to stay with any of us the night Grandma was in the hospital. These stubborn people are driving me nuts. How come I didn't inherit this stubbornness? It'll make moving out faster.

I was going car searching this weekend, but I'm opting for next week. Things came up and vegged indoors.

Friends have been going to rallies and I'm hoping to make it to one this upcoming week. :) I kind of miss those days.

Nano is going dismally. I seriously pat myself on the back if I can churn out one sentence, BUT I am learning a lot already: my strengths and weakness, a few techniques and what I'll need to prep for next time. See, I'm already thinking about next time. It's exciting and I'm going to try my best to see this through. :)

I'm hoping this week will be better. How's everyone doing?

BTW, I'm at DIK. :D

Saturday, November 8, 2008

More DIK

Meljean Brook's last day at DIKLadies Island post is now up
I apologize for the delay and lack of promo. Blog later.

In the meantime, please enjoy.

It's a good one. ^_~

Thursday, November 6, 2008

I figured it out

Typed: It takes me about 4 hours to meet the NaNoWriMo word count daily. One page takes about an hour, so I usually have four typed pages daily.

Work takes up 9 hours. Driving 1 hour. Cleaning up in the morning and night 2 hours total (not including showering). Waking up 1/2 - 1 hour. 1-2 hours at the Library. Dinner is about 1 hour. 8 hours-ish of sleep nightly.

All of this does not include taking care of my puppy loves or time I spend with friends.

I only have 2 hours to write on weekdays. Only half of NaNoWriMo's daily requirement to reach the month's wordcount deadline.

Is it scary that I've broken down and calculated my time? I think I've gone crazy. Yup.

Wednesday, November 5, 2008

Book wait

Should I wait?

I haven't exactly had my review yet, but the move is going to occur for sure. First the car though, which is coming up even sooner.

Should I wait on buying more books until then? I know it's the smart thing to do, but I seriously have been super good about not book splurging and with the holidays coming up...well, I'm due for a big one.

Want books. Everyone writing tempting reviews. I want to read happy funny books of random nonsense.

Granted, I really should get back to writing NaNoWriMo. You know I'm using the book excuse to delay writing. Yes, it's not working. The writer's blocks are still bugging.

What's a good, funny and plausible conflict without being too annoying? Hmmmm...I must contemplate with chocolatey goodness.


Also, I need to stop blog hopping. Too many great reviews of great books I want to buy.

I flaked

Aside from being still on pins about the propositions I'm especially worried about, I completely flaked yesterday and didn't do my NaNoWriMo. *cowers* Don't hurt me.

I'll do it today, promise. Or, I'll try to. I swear, I've been calling one friend every day complaining about why I'm crazy for doing this, not suited to be a writer and how crappy my writing is. He's being a trooper about it. I love having gay friends and if that *******ing prop (and one other) passes, I'm going to recant my promise and get back into politics (which I really don't want to -gaddammit) then there goes my book time. Romance books, that is.

Back to complaining: what the heck was I thinking when I joined NaNo. I don't even have a good conflict and the stubborn characters keep changing the story on me!!!! UGH!!!! Should I even be hearing them in my head? Mocking me? Need to get my head checked, but then I'd have to stop writing which will probably drive me more insane. Why won't my characters be more cooperative? They're the ones that wanted me to write their freaking story instead of my other crazy death filled dark novel. Then they mock me in my head.

P.S. Watched Addams Family Values last night to chill out from all the intensity. Still love it despite some kinks. Hehehe. Did you do anything fun last night?

Edit: If you are uncomfortable with political discussions, am very conservative, or don't want to hear me cuss rant, please skip the next bit. Skip it.

I'm giving you adequate warning and blank spacing.

Turn away.

Okay, I'm done warning ya.

I bleeped out most of the cursing, cussing, and profanity, but I seriously cannot believe the citizens of California can be so full of ****, ignorance and hate lost unable to recognize the true values of equality. That a place once thought to be a part of the forerunners of progress has caved lost it's place in this country. When the elimination of constitutional protection to all human individuals became butchered overshadowed by discrimination and fear.

I cannot believe the place I have called home and where I feel most safe have succumbed to stupidity injustice. To have injustice become a part of the very Constitution where blood, tears, and pain wrote the right to freedom, happiness, and safety from discrimination now destroyed deny the same individuals a part of our lives and history the rights they themselves have.

How can we, as a society, look ourselves in the mirror everyday knowing we've learned nothing from the hated crimes history not yet a decade old?

This is very disappointing and my heart breaks at the thought of the continual discriminatory policies of our country. I had thought people were smarter more respectful and tolerant of other people and less of a hypocrite discriminatory. To deny people the very right they themselves enjoy and completely **** up by ****ing around and changing families like changing tissue, while wearing the cloak of professing to be understanding and accepting of differences...somehow makes me more determined to see them cry make the change. Of course, according a my much younger-not-able-to-vote friends, we just need to wait a few years for the older generation to die off.

Patience maybe really is a virtue. If nothing else, while idiots haven't learned **** I have seen that people do learn from history and will finally slowly move forward to change our world to be a more equal place. Perhaps I'm being too harsh and hard on the voters whom ruined lives passed the prop. We are all entitled to our beliefs and it's not as if I want to eliminate stop someone else from having the right to equality. Then again, this is my blog where I can actually rant and readers have the option of not reading if they disagree. The little 'X' is at the upper right hand corner.

Guess this changes things.
If voting's not enough, then getting back into politics might be. ****

Tuesday, November 4, 2008

The Right to Vote; Iron Jawed Angels

I voted, have you?


The year I turned 18, I made sure to register. Despite my conservative and traditional family/background, politics and political discussions has always been a part of my life. My grandparents, parents, relatives from all over the world; politics is in our blood. And yes, politics were discussed at dinner tables, during dessert and arguments after the tables were cleared.

Given that my historical background also came from a time when my Grandparents were NOT allowed to vote; the right and ability to a safe vote was even more empowering.

My deceased Grandparents voted when they were still alive. My Grandfather even now, in his 80s, rode his bike and casted his vote today. No absentee for him, no way. Going itself was a great privilege, right, and responsibility. Grandmother does not in the US because she cannot read English. Having already self-taught Chinese (both grandmas did since women never passed elementary back in the day) was admirable enough for me. She's still involved though.

So, today, I woke up at 6AM to prep for the day. The gentle patters of the rain invigorated me and I rushed out to the polls a few minutes before 7AM. Even though there was a line, I happily waited. Tummy in knots from excitement (and hunger...too breakfast yet, vote more important), it took nearly a 30minute wait in the chilly morning drizzling air back at a childhood horror site *coughschoolcough*, but it was worth it. And I shall wear my sticker proudly.

I voted. :D

Now...this movie is my all time favorite self-encouraging-to-get-involved movie; Iron Jawed Angels (Like my color scheme? ^_~). It makes me proud to not only be able to vote, but also because I am an American minority and a female (also seen as a minority). Whale Rider is another great movie, in case you're feeling low.

If there has ever been an argument on the right to vote and the horrors between pre-Antebellum era through the Civil Rights movement does not move you to get out and vote, this piece of reconstructed movie about the early women's movement in gaining the right for a woman to have her say in the very same legal system she must adheres makes you laugh, cry, and ultimately empowered.

Iron Jawed Angels assembled an incredible cast to portray the early fight for women's right to vote. This HBO movie was one of the best stylized and authentic telling of the struggle for the vote. Based on the historical fight in America for women to safely vote, it's rather accurated.
When you have a chance-listen to the commentary (as I have done countless time because I'm like that) and you'll hear the great effort and realism of the movie. A lot of the voice over dialogue and arguments against the right for women to vote were actual documented speeches and writings, so no, it's not an overblown chick flick.
Ergo, if the rush of adrenaline, excitement and sense of accomplishment for having to voted was not enough, watch this movie. :D

Saturday, November 1, 2008

All Hallow's Eve

Oh Happy Halloween. ^_~ (yes, I know, it happened yesterday...I started this post earlier).

What a happy day to have Halloween on a Friday. It's always so rare to have a break the next day after a night full of candy, costumes and horror filled fun.

Born on an Island, the culture of the dead was never really separated from the living. Ancestor worships and the spirits month (we get a whole month) were usually celebrated around Summer time and not in late Autumn. There's a LOT food involved, not just candy. Celebrated by everyone in the family and not just kids, we actually go out to the gravesights to clean the areas, bring food, offerings and relax. And during this time, you're supposed to NOT mention anything related to the deceased and spirit world after dark.

Elders told us that during this time, the veil between the living and the dead is incredibly thin. It is a time that allows those that have gone to return easily and visit, asks us for things to burn to them, and such. If we were to speak of anything related, some of the 'unrested' and often unrelated spirits may attach themselves to us (children) and cause ill. The Buddhist clergy would perform a ceremony specifically for the unrested spirits, the wandering, lost, or poor spirits and 'feed' them and we would attend.

So, moving to the U.S., it has extremely different. For one, all the graves are back in the old country. Two, there are very few Buddhist temples around to even have offerrings sent back. Three, most importantly, it's not around the same time.

Ah, the joys of being polythestic. Chinese Buddhism does encourage my celebration of all holidays and as much as love this freedom, it sometime means I'm celebrating ALL tHe TiMe. O_o

Um...can't afford that, sorry. Not like I could have purchased half the things I needed for most of those celebrations as a child. So...what was left?

A more light-hearted aspect for Halloween. As a child in the fifth grade, we were given a writing assignment to write a scary story. It was my first attempt at writing (with a computer too *gasp* - no more typewriters! <~~except, I've kind of gone back to them) and I was going to write a great story. Lo and behold, it was a romantic tragedy. My classmates loved it. My teacher didn't, so boohoo to that stupid person. Romantic tragedy. A man fell in love with a ghost. It was not a happy ending and done mostly in flash back. Too bad the old computer died and my paper was tossed out by family. Or else I'd enlighten all of you to my childhood psyche of the power of love wins, yet doomed.

Anyhoooo, back to the post...

In the US, the celebration of Halloween was a bit odd. It seemed that scary movies were played more so during this period (as opposed to all the time when I was growing up). They were more bloody and gorey; twisted but without this sense of psychosis. Asian horror, for the longest time, was about the crazy factor. The "it really could happy." Yet, these gushing bloods and decapitated talking heads were somehow disturbing in it's own way.

As a kid, it was about candy. Not much of those for my life since my parents didn't really let me go trick-o-treating. When Waipo was alive, she would take us, but she wasn't always here at Halloween in those days either. So I stayed home, watched Hocus Pocus (great movie) and gave out candy.

In the teens-college years, this was more of a party time. Party with candy. O_o Not great parties, but we'd tell horror stories with dimmed lights and tell ghost stories. Late college years, theme parks (hehehe). And more horror movies.

This year, I just stayed home, watched TV (not even horror, just random shows) and passed out to the 8 kids that came this year. Yes, 8. All evening. It was weird. When I was younger and wasn't allowed to go Halloween because I have to pass out candy, the children always came non-stop and we would almost run out of candy. Yet, for the past few years, the kids get fewer and fewer.

It wasn't a bad Halloween, but definitely not as festive as the memories of my youth.

In the meantime, I have started on NaNoWriMo. Very exciting and I am nowhere NEAR my daily quota. So, I bid you adieu as I hurry back to my happy novella.

Best of luck everyone! I hope you had a wonderful Halloween and are having a grand weekend. :)